Worry Not

D: Mama, Dodo dream. 

Me: What was the dream about baby?

D: Mama and house.

Me: What about me and the house?

D: Mama clean house. 

Me: I was cleaning in your dream? How about the house?

D: Ahh, think think think. 

My son had a dream about me cleaning the house even in his sleep. Oh my. I have a confession. I worry a lot of things. One, it runs in the family and second maybe because it’s a woman’s nature. I don’t know. I am a clean freak too. I want the house to be in order and squeaky-clean. But in doing this, I tend to become a monster mom. I let them play all they like but when I see the mess around my stress levels confounds unexplainably. Yes, just like that. I try to discipline the kids and make them keep their toys every after playing but there are times that both of them get cranky leaving me all their mess.  I am not complaining but it’s just that sometimes it gets exhausting.

When my son told me about his dream, I felt bad. It seems that I worry too much about the room’s cleanliness that I forget that they need my time too. I also worry about not accomplishing something in a day that I feel like I am not productive enough anymore.

See, my son is just like my teacher that he makes me reflect on my attitude so I can make improvements towards a happy mother and child relationship. He randomly tells me also, “Please don’t be mad. Dodo hug Mama.” It crushes my heart that I feel so guilty that I am not raising him well.

I know it will be hard for me to try to take it easy on some of the chores but surely I will device a plan to meet each other’s needs and be able to continue to take care of them in anyway I can.

Life is like a nursing plan. A cycle. First step is to assess the situation. Formulate the diagnosis. Create a plan and then implement it. Let us not forget to evaluate our plan from our implementation. Then if things didn’t work out, we are free to repeat the cycle until we can say the goals HAVE MET.

Let us not wallow on too much negative things in life but rather transform them into positive thinking. Let us spread the bliss in everything we do and let us not forget that parenting should not be full of fury rather constructively happy.

Dwell not on negative things. Find peace within. Celebrate life with of bliss.