When I first
learned that I was pregnant again, I had mixed emotions. The feeling of
being blessed to carry a blessing for 9 months and the ifs that I will
encounter along the way. It was hard because I have two demanding toddlers and
nanny-less at the same time. Every chore is quite challenging for me already
while taking care of them and making sure that everything is in place and that they
are fed properly. Then this. Don’t get me wrong though, it is indeed a
blessing. But every pregnancy doesn’t come easy.
The first trimester was extreme challenging for me. It was dreadful
to say the least. My morning sickness which lasted until before I sleep at
night was the worst. I had no energy to cook let alone go to the market. In order for us to survive, I
opted for food delivery. It sustained us for the first three months. There are
times that I had no appetite at all. I could sleep all day and sleep with an
empty stomach. I was nauseated almost the entire day and I dread the smell of
food cooking from the neighbor's kitchen.
There were good days that I had the energy to pay a visit to the grocery store
but can only be like two hours tops. I would buy bread, cereals, fruits and
milk for the kids.
Our usual conversation would be like:
Eldest: Mama, I already ate sandwich and gave my sister a
sandwich too.
Me: Thank you baby for understanding mama.
Yes, I felt so guilty during the times my kids had to fend for
themselves while I struggle with my all day sickness. I just didn’t have the energy to
move at all. My body was glued to the bed and every move I made feels like
energy drained to the maximum level.
Then came the second trimester. I felt so much better. It
was nearing my 6th month mark when I can finally tolerate the smell
of the food and my taste buds finally gave up on take out food. Finally, I can
cook! It was such a delight as I can see that hubby is already longing for real
home cooked food. I felt relief, guilt and incompetence all at the same time. But I thank the Lord that I went past it.
Now, I am almost on my 35th week and only a month or
so that we will be seeing the addition to our growing family. Glad that I felt so much
better despite the feeling of heaviness on my abdomen as well as the nonstop
somersaulting inside my tummy that makes it more uncomfortable.
Finally been able to clean the house too and did wall-to-wall cleaning, decluttered, rearranged the furnitures in preparation for the little boy. Yes, I am again expecting a baby boy.
Will still keep you updated with everything in between plus a giveaway that is so long overdue as well as some of my post blog events.
