To my little girl...
It was more than a year ago when you came as a sweet surprise to mama and papa. It was not in our plan that I get pregnant again and yet you came. At first, I was sad because I had plans of working after your kuya will turn a year old that time. Mama will work again and maybe will have another baby after 2 years. But then you came, all I have to do was to accept the fact that you are in mama's tummy already. I prayed hard so that you will be healthy just like kuya. Mama tried to work when you were just weeks old. But then I guess you wanted me to rest so when I had a check up with my OB she asked me to rest until it's time for you to come out of my tummy. You were a threatened abortion when you were weeks old. You wanted me to rest like a princess and mama was so lazy that time unlike when I was pregnant with kuya. I had to take uterine relaxants that time. I asked you to be strong for me and hold on and you did. I know you are such a good girl even if you are so demanding at times. When we went home to lola at the province you scared me again because of the contractions. You asked me to rest. I know you are stressed also. When it was time for you to come out you were still hesitant to go out of my tummy. The doctors had to push you out of my tummy even if it was cut open. I know you don't want to leave your comfort zone but it was time to see you and finally to be with you. I was able to kiss you and yes mama can feel your presence already.
Now few hours after you were born, you scared me again like you did when you were weeks old. I know I was liable for you getting infection but I was scared for you. You didn't have to go through alot of needles and antibiotics with your age but still you hold on and I know you are one brave little girl. You fought for me, kuya and papa.
After 5 days of you staying at the hospital I was so excited to see you and finally pick you up but then I had hypertension that time. It was my highest bp on the record. But still nothing can stop mama to finally be with you, your lola took care of it. She gave me anti hypertensive and finally few hours after waiting it went down.
Now you are 10 months old, I still can't believe how time flies that I can't imagine two teeth already erupted. I can hear you cry out for my name and how you cry when you couldn't see me. I love it also when every morning all you wanted was for me to carry you and cuddle you instead of papa. I know you love me baby girl.
I hope you become a strong willed woman just like me. I will protect you the best way I can and take good care of you. Please remain as a sweet little girl for me. I love you so much baby AJ.
Love always,
mama
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